We recently found out that we were expecting and were filled with such joy. We had begun discussing baby names and room arrangements to make way for our new child. We already loved our new child. I went to the doctor twice this week, once on Kate's Birthday and once on Christmas Eve and that's when it was confirmed that we had miscarried.
I'm just so sad. I wanted my baby....I wanted to hold my baby.
The Lord has been ever so gracious to me. Rick was home all week which has been a tremendous blessing. We've had dear friends watch the children so Rick and I could be alone for a little while. We've had family and friends bring meals. All of these acts of love have shown God's care and comfort. I know God's word is true as I feel His comfort and peace. And I know that while I am weak, He is strong.
First up, the Hug Me Pillow! Here's my favorite review but you can read them all on the website:
"I bought this pillow to keep my company on nights when my husband, a correspondent for the Trans-Alaskan News Network, was out of town. The pillow exceeded even my wildest expectations. I'm told the pillow was modeled after Brad Pitt, and I believe it! When I first nestled against the soft, but firm chest of my new "husband" I slept better than I ever had before. Now I don't mind when my husband goes out of town!"
Next, the Snuggie blanket. Fun for all! (This one comes with a free book light!) :)
Me: I don't know...it normally doesn't snow on Christmas day but you know who is in charge of the snow
Me: That's right. You can pray and ask Him if he'll make it snow and if it's in His plan, He'll make it snow!
Kate: Well, what if it's not in His plan?
Me: Then it won't snow
Kate: Well that's OK...if God won't do it...Jesus will
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I am writing you this letter today, November 20, 2008 because your great-grandfather went to be with the Lord this afternoon. You are all so young and I know you will have no memories of him but he loved you all and I wanted you to know. He came to visit each of you in the hospital when you were born. He held you all as babies and loved you. He would make you french fries and milkshakes when you came to see him. Henry, you never got to have those snacks but you would have loved them. Claire, a few times you choose to have English peas but most of the time, you had fries. :) You all came several times to visit Dadoo in the hospital in his last few weeks and you weren't bothered by the oxygen tubes or the hospital. I know he is with the Lord now and he is perfect and happy and I pray one day you will be in Heaven as well and will be able to meet him again.
Dadoo was a father, grandfather, great-grandfather, lived through the great-depression, fought in WWII, owned his own business, volunteered and was generous with him time and possessions.
Will Christians Learn the Lesson?
I also encourage the reading of the following information:
How does the constitution party differ from the libertarian party?
Greenspan, who stepped down in 2006, called the banking and housing chaos a
"once-in-a-century credit tsunami" that led to a breakdown in how the free
market system functions
I'll admit I may not fully understand the depth of this "financial crisis", but I am tired of people saying the free market failed. We do not have a free market. Our government's hands are all over the latest problems and the solution is to add more government interference. The free market has not been free to function in and of its own will in quite a long time in this country.
I am thankful to live in a country where we are free, but I am greatly saddened by what we are leaving for future generations. Previous generations left us welfare and social security among the many great programs that are now failing. We are generating more of the same to correct issues generated from past decisions.
We can argue why goverment programs fail, but what it boils down to is that government programs are quickly abused and they often if not always run into financial problems. Our government needs to be drastically shrunk rather than simply slowing its growth. I see no hope for this occurring anytime soon.
The one thing I am most thankful for is that God is the one who gives government's their authority. We have the luxury to debate the ignorance of decisions made in our government without fear of penalty, and by the grace of God we have the promise of eternal life that renders everything I've written above inconsequential in the long run.
Ron Paul's campaign for the republican nomination forever changed my political views and now I can only laugh at politics in this country. We are a fickle people in this nation, and we seem to be stuck in one of those revolving doors they have a nice hotels. Every four years we have this huge debate as to whether we're going to walk slowly or walk fast, but we're always going in the same direction. I'm ready for a candidate that says he is willing to walk the other direction and reverse much of the nonsense we have accepted as normal (put into law) in our country.
There is an interesting article on LewRockwell.com about Joe the Plumber that provides a good example of what I'm talking about. The last Presidential debate discussed Joe's plight with the proposed tax system of Obama, but neither candidate was willing to step back and acknowledge that Joe has more fundamental issues that need to be resolved. Our country is much like someone trying to free themselves from an addiction, and they try several help groups, but never recognize their offense against God and they never repent to receive the benefits of Christ's death and resurrection.
Then I change his diaper. The minute that cold wipe hits him, he says, "BURRRR!!!" (He needs to be the spokesman for a wipe warmer company.)
When we leave his room he waves and says, "Bye, Bye"
When he sees the TV remote, he points at it and says, "no no"
He also says: light, mama and dada
In other news, I finally bought my OWN blush this past Saturday...I had no choice...I ran out of Kate's play one...
So yes, I wore my 3 year old's play make-up to church and the sad thing is, I've been using it all week.
Last week after I talked to her, she said, "I NEED to ask Jesus to forgive me of my sins. I'm a sinner."
So we prayed together and rejoiced together. I know only time will tell if it was real but I pray that God has given her a new heart and that she will never remember a time when she didn't love and trust Jesus.
Today I was telling her about the Holy Spirit and that he lives inside of her. I said God has given him to you since you believe and trust in Jesus. I explained that He would teach her and help her to obey the Lord and show people His love.
She said, "He's living inside of me???? When's he gonna GET OUT!"
Camp was GREAT fun and we are going to do it again next year for sure!! I asked Kate what her favorite activity was and she said, "I liked Water Day! Oh and Oak Mountain. And the McWane Center and the zoo. AND Jump Zone! Well...I just liked everything!" That about sums it up...
Getting ready to throw WBs at HHFun in the pool
HH loved the pool which is funny because he HATES the bathtub
Popsicles in the Pool
He was laughing hysterically until I got the camera out...Oh well
At the petting zoo
Kate loved all the animals' ears
Walking with the donkeys
The animals were sad to see us go
Henry at the lake
Claire at the lake
The girls playing
Kate flying the kite